Dear blogger ,
Yesterday .. 01august .. 48 days without you.. So yeah, i apologize for not posting last night as I was drunk.. I'm sorry. Happy birthday to ting ting !!! Hope you enjoyed your day !!! Was a rush day yet I enjoyed it to the maximum. So I was like... Went school w sleepy mindset .. Rushed home , wanted to take a nap.. Ended up I didn't -.- bathe and went out!!! Was like !!! Damn high but till kbox ... We started drinking.. Singing those sad love song.. And the songs I wanted to sing to you just to learnt them up and sing w you .. But I don't have the chance anymore . Then .. They say I was drunk... I'm so lucky that I didn't drink even more , cause chai is saying that to the extend .. I may even called you or text you rubbish.. So I'm so lucky , dear boy. Why can't you just realize that all Along I never leave you'? Infact I know it wasn't only crushes . I know it's more than I expect ? I didnt know that our love is so weak. I didnt know that actually , I was longed out of your world . We are only meant to be ... Bestfriends . But sorry dear , I can't do that . I really can't.. 我们的爱，过了就不再回来‥直到现在我还默默的等待 ... ):
Today .. The 02th august.. The 49days without you.. I woke up damn early despite there's no school . Having a terrible hang over -.- and I remembered last night I puked black and red stuff after reaching home -.- wtf . Stomach was so empty... I finished watching ygts .. And I'm still hungry.. Until I went out at 2 and finally have my "breakfast" .. Meet joh and chai to go bishan for my mum's dress . Then fetch zx back from school.! Went slacking and alot of terrible stuff happened -.- wtf , why everything coming at one time ? I don't wish to see people aroun me getting upset nor what okay. Please man, will all these just leave forever ? ... I saw you today , was happy and I realize my heart beat so fast upon seeing you all the time . I would always look around just to see where are you and glance at you for that moment while no one notice . I'm not sick, I just miss you .. Sorry.. And at some point , our eyes met for seconds and I was even more nervous . I saw your wallet .. You no longer kept my baby photo.. Does it prove that you really forget me already ? Or is it I'm the one who is sick and stupid to still keep your baby photo in my purse ? ): I'm really sad upon seeing this alrights.. What you say in twitter in so untrue can? ... Dear boy , if you ever realize theres still meeee! I'm here to listen to you, talk to you, and understan you to maximum. Thought what I said might not be useful or perhaps I really don't understand you. But at least , give me a chance to try .. Give me a chance to understand you... Give me a chance to bring us back to where we used to be ): will you? Sadly , no one can see the pain in me . Seriously .... No one at all... How I wished how I wished ...
Fatty, I'm sorry but I tried and I failed .. I love you and I cared for you, I can't contact you , but Im still here for you. I wanna make you know how much you mean to me .... By just giving you time .... But actually is just a excuse cause I already know the answer in my head . I wish you would be in the dramas ... Lets give us 2years time .... And 2 years later ... We can still be together and last forever ... I really do miss that.. I seriously,.. Loved ... You.... Too.... Deep... ):
我没有很想你，只是每天起床都回看电话，看你有没有找我。告诉我你想我....
@Priscillaxueman
10:32 PM
Tuesday, August 2, 2011