Dear blogger ,
I'm on my way home nao. Actually I don't feel like going home so early though I have school tomorrow . Don't know why, all a sudden my mood swings even I didnt see anything going wrong. I have a test tomorrow and I totally forgotten about it and still went swimming w kh and co. Eyes are closing now but I think I have more to blog .
06th July ..
The twenty two day without you. I wonder twenty two is it really my lucky number or what .. I saw you today . 3weekd two days didn't saw you and I think you grew bigger in size . Not fatter la !! Just bigger and taller .. You have a haircut already , ha! I laughed but you still look awesome to me though a bit weird /: school was tiring today .. I nearly fell a sleep in some classes .. Today time pass so fast that I didn't realize it. I enjoyed swimming really much. Anyway there's a bad news ? 2 more days to eighth .. Or is it one and a half day more ~ so well I knew that . That day was a special day for her also.. Which means one day two people .. Well hard and harsh decision, I decided to go clack quay and to the Singapore flyers and have a walk. I still can't let go it . I'm so sorry that I lied . Today in school , someone asked why we really broke off . I lied and said , "cause we don't get along well, we quarrel and we think we are not suitable for each other cause we still don't know each other well.. And I sai if we are really meant for each Other maybe ... 2years later ? 5years later ? Just gonna wait till we are more mature " and the same old lines .. "you two so pei! " if only compatible is a forever .. But sadly is not .. So everytime people asked I realize I'm using the same old lines to lie over and over again.. Just when I reflected if only what I said was true enough and so it won't be so hard to let go everything nao. I wished to ask you , how are you now ? Will you even remember me on the eighth ? I realize I'm just so silly. Silly over heart breaks . Silly over the same old reason .. Being so moodless yet to act as if everything is so fine so happily.. Seeing sweet couples around me make me feel so .. Envy? Or reminding me about our past. I realize I only know that you don't like to eat yellow stuff expect eggs . You love greentea.. Just like me . You like hotdogs . The particular brand only.. Nobody can replace your chouchou. You don't like people snatching it away. You dislike school . Is too far . You love your group of brothers more than everything . You dote your mum more than anyone would . And .. You miss the particular her ... No one can ever replace her be in you are single or attached .. I don't know what I'm thinking nao, if only everything can rewind .. I'll choose to know you longer perhaps by then , we would know if is a love or like . If is a forever or a while . I guess whatever I'm saying nao doesn't make a differences anymore and I wish nobody would comment it be it in private or public cause this is my blog, my diary . My personal life . I don't wish any nasty comment or pathetic looks . I really need timetimetime . And this is what I said to myself every moment . Every single moment . Sorry for acting so much, cause I know I'm suppose to leave . 做到这样不是应为不爱你而是应为我…太爱你。
@Priscillaxueman
10:00 PM
Wednesday, July 6, 2011