Dear blogger ,
It the 7th of july nao .. And it's 8.40.. Which means another 3hours 20 mins to the eighth.. I'm scare .. As i realize im still not over you. Later while I think I'll be opening my blogger as what I've said for the only 24 hours .. It's Froday tomorrow .. I guess I should enjoy myself but .. I don't think I'm still able to take it .. I'll be going to the places isay I'll be no matter how hurting I guess I'll be cause I wish to .. I'm alone downstairs nao. Blogging this while holding on to a cig in my hand . Good news is I cut down smoking alot . It's my second cig today and I guess I made the effort to the quitting part . I'm asking myself if reality it's gonna hunt me tomorrow .. Cause well.. I read her twitter .. She's regretting for a choice she made and I don't know which he is referring to . Just like you ... Tons and tons of regret . But no one will ever know cause you guys don't speak up. No one is gonna know what you guys are thinking .. I think I'm so foolish as I realize I thought so much nao that my tears are rolling down my cheeks . I don't know why but I'm still waiting for the false hope .. You in return .. To contact me and ask me how am I doing .. It really wasn't easy to let go everything and all these while it prove me wron for acting all those nonsense . I don't know what to do in fact . So useless .. And there's nothing I can do about . Now .. I'm thinking how am I suppose to continue blogging .. Cause I'm out of words . How am I suppose to let you know that you effect so much in my life now ? I'm so tired .. I miss you so much everyday. I love you still so deeply.. I worried for you in any ways be it a single thing or what. I just felt so useless only been able to talk all these nonsense and don't wish to bother anyone else's . I thought I'm strong enough. I thought I'm mature enough . I thought I'm able to overcome all these. I thought it's just a crush and it will be over soon. I thought it's just some stupid stuff that I can't think through clearly. And I realize all is just my thoughts . I thought I understand you so well. I thought we would be able to last till the end . I thought I may give you those happiness you wanted . I thought I'm such a good girlfriend . I thought you loved me so deeply. I thought we would able to go to the places we promised .. But all vanish into ashes . All these scary moments . Dear boy, I miss you.. Do you miss me ? I still love you, and do you? I still kept all our memories , have you? I remembered everything and do you? I read back our texts , our chat, our photos , our notes and lastly .... Our own video.
I'm so sorry but I loved you. Just a little too much.. A little too deep. A little too many .... ):
期待着你的到来、你的出现、你的问候、 你的所有.真的好爱好爱你可是到底谁明白？
@Priscillaxueman
8:38 PM
Thursday, July 7, 2011