Dear blogger ,
The 17july. The 33days without you... Those feelings and thoughts seriously can't stop running from my mind and I'm so.... againnn.... Today... Ive been feeling sleepy and slept for long hours this few days cause maybe ive not been sleeping well durin the week days .. So yeah, I woke up at 11 plus and found myself looking at stuff which I don't wanna look. Why are they going your house when you don't like people go up to your house in the past? Why are you cooking for them and whywhywhy? I thought only your girlfriend and your closest can go up to your house ? Now you make it so meaningless by letting them up. Why? Or isit one of them has already been your girlfriend.. Do you know how much the tweets affect me the whole day even till now ? Done my sgc and sent to teacher .. Went to tuition so restless again . What's wrong w me ? No motivation at all-.- on my way heading home saw alexea and her little brother . Had a long talk w her . Just so many many things that I wanted to share but sadly there's no one .. I don't know what to say at times but I just said what's on my mind and ... Went home .. While lying on my bed .. I looked through our texts again .. Those promises which you say you wouldn't leave me and wouldn't bear to leave me ? Those times when you spammed and told me how much you missed me ? Those quarrels we been walking on and on? Those times when we hug each other because we missed each other so much? those times when I was a good girl cause you don't wanna me to hang out late without you? Those times when you called me in the night when you are in camp and told me how much you missed me ... Where are all those now ? Those "I love you" why is it gone now ? I'm fucking sad sitting in the kitchen while my mum is in the room .. I just wished someone would lent me a shoulder to lean on. And let me say all I wanted to say . Why am I so sad now ? Why must I be the one suffering when you are showing me how happy you was ? Why must it be me .. I stayed at home to do my cw today and waiting for mummy to bring me out for dinner . I wouldn't blog later on cause I wanna catch some sleep . I'm tired .. Dear you, you Promised me you wouldn't leave me no mater what.. But now you left me .. What am I suppose to say? Such a beautiful lies . Everything is just so ..... Happy to be real . It. All . Ended .
Someone got to wake me up ): I'm really falling apart .
@Priscillaxueman
8:02 PM
Sunday, July 17, 2011