Dear blogger,
30thjune .. The sixteenth days without you. Well. Today is the last day of June . Which means , all those bad memories of ours are gonna disappear I guess? Cause June was the worst month I had . Breakup !! LOL! school was boring today , but yeah? I promised you I'll go school everyday despite I'm tired or lessons are boring !! So well!! Good job! Headed home after school and have a nap, was tired .. I didn't heard your news the whole day and I'm kinda worried ? I'm so weird la ! This morning I saw you tweeted something like a girl whatever ~ I was thinking... Is it a song? Is it your primary school girl? Or are you trying to say you still miss me ? Okay, so it was silly and shameless ! But yes , I though was me .. I thought it over when I was having my nap today. I love things were now and I don't think we should be back together in some point of view . I still love you, but I don't want a guy which don't love me .. And yes ? Pearlie asked , if you and I are able to be together will you? I replied nope without thinking.. I said we need time . Maybe 2years? Maybe 5years ? Maybe never ? Remain like this will be better for you isnt it? So smile and move on. I went central in the night. To change my screen protector and my phone cover . I'm gonna keep everything I once had w you in the cardboard . No point holding still it will make me think more .. So this decision I had made . I'm very proud of it . Seeing you like this is enough. I just want youto be happy afterall. I'm only praying now , WE STILL CAN BE VERYVERYVERY GOOD FRIENDS LIKE THE PAST. seeing you smile is my last wish now (: and I cleared all the misunderstanding last night. I called zx and met .. And he told me everything ? I guess what you said you will still remember . I know you just wanna be single now , so yeah. Good luck to you. I'm gonna move on step by step. I'm not gonna find replacement . I'm only gonna forget you slowly , day by day.. I'm sure I can do it . I look through our photos just now . I was smiling .. You will never know how real are those smiles if you said that you didn't forget her completely. But I believed you... I realize I'm so selfish. Cause all the photos I'm the only one holding on. I promise you I'll sent you but I always forget and now you only have our memories till 3rd month? Or maybe you deleted all. But I'm gonna understand too. So .. Let's start afresh. Dear boy, you and I are awesome ! I am really happy that we once shared so much. And I'm really grateful to know you.
Goodnights reader . I'm must more sensible tonight. Cause you never know how much I gone through. And I how I manage to take step by step. You guys will never be me .
@Priscillaxueman
10:06 PM
Thursday, June 30, 2011