Dear blogger ,
I'm late again tonight, I think I'm such a failure that I can't blog On time everynight. I must have been so useless . I jail breaked my phone and I was late as I can't blog infront of them. . I'm waiting alone outside my house now , as I misplaced my keys and I'm scare !! Super afraid , I wish you were there );
21june.. The seventh day or to say the first week without you, seriously, you are still affecting my mood every now and then and I don't know what I'm suppose to do. I acted as if I'm tired but actually is the mood which feel sucks yet you are enjoying like a happy only! School days are getting nearer and there's more reality I got to face ! I prayed hard that no one really asked and make me burst out crying . I just hate things are like this now . I watched our videos again and again.. And I'm wondering do you still have them ? As in like those happy memories ? I wish you still keeps our photos but I guessed you wounldnt . i'm obviously jealous that's why my mood changes . I know you may say not now but there's still a little of insecure . Now im alone outside waiting and praying that you will concern for me ? But I guessed I'm wrong , you already gaves me up. Still thinking that there will be another chance but I guess I think too much and is SERIOUSLY TOO MUCH! I got to stop all these . But dear boy, do you miss me like how I missed you? Are you still loving me ? I seriously don't wish you would forget me easily. Sometimes it isn't that you don't wish me to fall in deeper but is I already fall in as deep as you would never imagine ... How can I forgot all these when there are just too many memories to hold? Memories are the only think that wouldnt disappear throughout life isn't it ? I miss your everything love . Why can't we be like last time ? I dislike now ! I dislike life without you, I dislike everything without you! No one to wipe my tears when I cried , no one holds my hand , no one give me warm hugs , no one to talk to me when I'm alone . No one to be there w me even when I have pains . No one to pat me to sleep, no one to sing those songs by staring at me w those eyes . No one kiss me to make me feel even secure. I dislike being alone my dear . I really missed you , why can't you just understand ? I don't believe in not meant to be ! Like seriously? Never tries never know. Is you the one who gives up on me when I hold on to you, even when I know you loved another girl more deeply. I still hold on to you. Im very tired seriously, dear god , please bring all these pain away. I want you to be by my side .
My friend , my bestfriend , my lover , my boyfriend, . I can't bring myself to forget you. I'm sorry, I love you ... ):
@Priscillaxueman
12:53 AM
Wednesday, June 22, 2011