Dear blogger ,
i got no pictures currently as i'm at chai's house . Back-to-friends. due to the strength given from my friends , i decided to be strong and let go all these unwillingly. i think no one is able to understand how i feel now , and i guess i'm gonna continue waiting as i'm stubbon . i know.. we wouldn't be together again. i guess i have know him quite well and whatever he decided he wouldn't change his mind . cause .. he thinks that he know what he is thinking . i told myself not to cry and beg him to be back , and i know if i really love him i should let him go... i didnt expect the problem between us is .. i thought you have already forgotten but i'm sorry to say that you are really selfish , cause you thought i'm strong enough you let me go rather then trying real hard to forget . if you think i'm strong enough , please ask . how strong could i be ? i'm already at the edge to break down or to say , breaking down .. all these while you told me how much you love me and i guess i'm able to feel it. but the worst matter is that such a lousy girlfriend you have didnt even know that the heart is been shared by two . foolishly , i trusted you all these while and now who is breaking the trust? i believed that time is gonna prove everything . all those pain is gonna end quickly. and i fucking dislike people who keep questioning me why we broke off. is like wtf ? you guys are only putting salt in my wound and it hurts even more. if you really care . dont ask, if i believe you . i will talk to you.
5months , 6days , 20 hours . my lover boy .. i still love you and it really hurts me seeing this and knowing the facts at the same time ..
15june , the first day we didnt contact at all , the first day from our relationship. i thought i could as if nothing but i cant . i dont know what to do or who to say , but i bear everything and really hold myself not to contact you. timetimetime! i went school crying today as our past is rewinding in my mind . words you said and actions you did , it's been spinning around . i hope you could forget her ,and be the evan i once knew . knowing that would be hard but i wish you all the best, and i hate myself for lying now in blogger while typing the tipical sentence is because i knew that in my heart , you stand so much that i dont know what words i can discribe and tell you that leaving you was torturing ever since the moment we broke of yesterday .....
i'm sorry , but i am not that strong as you think i am . i guess i am gonna continue acting thought everyone knows i'm faking it. lastly, i love you ...
@Priscillaxueman
4:23 AM
Thursday, June 16, 2011